Well then, I guess I can be a hypocrite at times. There isnt a time when I did not say "The Hell with blogs and twitters. Facebook FTW!!" or " Geez, Facebook and Twitters the same GADDAMN thing!!". But I guess it is as the saying goes, "Things change in time". Hmm.....whatever -_-
This may bore you, but give me a bit of time to explain the reason behind this blog and me...Well truth is Im kinda bored and it is kinda lonely here, havent been doin much but reading manga's (look it up), porn, games, facebook, more porn, outings, movies, porn, mangas more porn.....you get the drift. Well here's something about me then:
1)The name is Sudhan J., age 21, Height: 171, Weight: 68, I am diagnosed with High Cholesterol due to family inheritance and currently doing my Degree in Taylors University, Lakeside Campus.
2) I socialise alot, but I am extremely shy.
3) I am not into sports, though I enjoy playing some (for the sake of fun).
4) I get very nervous, yet extremely pleased when having conversations or (if I dare enough to say it) goin out with girls. Double the happiness if they do acknowledge me in future....(I sound like a total "otaku" innit? whatever, its just me...)
5) I have no talent in mostly everything, but I get my fare share of credit for "possibly" being the only Indian that is able to draw original anime characters.
well that should do. Anyway...
Its Sunday, 1st of August and the clock shows 11.44am. As I sit here, burning my balls of with my closest buddy Dell Inspiron 1420 on my lap, a plate of eaten-homemade muffins (thanks ma) and a cuppa coffee, I kept wondering about the flaws of nature especially humans (Nope this HASNT anything to do with my Assignments and crap). Its been itching me; how people aim for being the perfect figure; to be adored by many, to be visioned as a leader, a positive figure religiously and ethically and other "positive" crap. Many clamour and speak (shamelessly) about one's (and advertising others) worldly and beautiful natures....often leaving out the dark one's for "rep" (reputation) sake. My understanding is that they fear to inform the world of their weakness, as it may cause imminent dangers of losing friends, fame, glory and whatever shit they desire most! Thus comes the habit of telling "LIES".
Its human to tell Lies, cant blame everyone who does. I lie.....alot. Many around me say:
"God, i hate them Mother-effers who Lie....bunch of low-life b*tches!!" yadda yadda. Then they glare at me waiting for my answer as his/her backup..
"Yea, those shits dont deserve to be friends...yeah..." I say enthusiastically
Told you, I lie.... -_-
Truthfully, I am different. I dont condemn those who lie! (I see them eyebrows raisin'). Naturally, I'd condemn anyone that lied for more than 3 times but really, I dont condemn them when they lie. No doubt, it hurts and it loses your trust and perception on the person, but.....I remind myself, that every purpose has a reason. You tell a lie, because of something that prompted you to do it. So who am i to judge? Is it ok for me to say you are nothing but a liar, without knowing the cause of it? That person may have done it for a meaningful/worthy/ passable purpose, I dont know......when I lie, I do it out of fear of hurting people, hurting myself and for what I believe in! Yeah, i am no better than you guys/gals. So.....why the hell should I justify or deem you a cold blooded filthy Liar, when Im not any better than of you guys/gals? Those people I mentioned above either say they "dont lie" or they quickly change the topic.
So is there a person that exist in the world, that is perfect in nature? I doubt it. No matter what people preach about their goodness and worthiness, there's always a dirty lie hidden behind an agenda. Which is why I find myself very interested with the Chinese philosophical concept of the "Yin and Yang" - In every good there's evil; In every evil there's good. I found it quite valid, as there is no sense of "perfection" in human. A perfect interpretation.
Which then brings me (to bring back you guys from pushing the "back", "home" or "close window/tab" hehe..^^) to tell you dudes/dudettes the reason of this blog! Apart from just (hopefully) making my boring and dorky life, more meaningful, I just want to make this blog something more different than the other blogs you've seen. I plan, to write down my thoughts as it is. Main thing is: I want to tell you the world as I see it from my eyes truthfully; whether how absurdly wrong, explicit or horrible it is to even mention...I'll write it down. All my life, I've been viewed by my peers as a naive, good natured and innocent kind of boy, and it keeps me wondering how true it is. I am always in doubt, guess thats why Im so oftenly stressed out. =S
So apart from just filling my lonely and boring life with something, i write in the hopes of sharing my views, trials & tribulations, hopes, life, lusts (ROFL, yea) etc with you dudes/dudettes with a touch of sincerity and openess. I just wanna be heard, I wanna meet people, I wanna make my life more meaningful, and I wanna just talk; something I cant do in real life. All I ask is a little of your tolerance, and time...It'd be mucho appreciated
Well done for those of you who survived this post......LOL!
I also wont be updating this anytime soon. My University begins tomorrow and with the shitload of assignments bound to come, I doubt it. Maybe I'd make it an effort if there were any readers out there who'd like to relate, talk, socialise with me through this blog...haha
Lastly, this is not an assignment based blog... thought you oughta know ;))
Please comment, I am open to any type of arguments, deathnotes, or love notes or SPAMS or Cheers or whatever. Its always a pleasure in knowing you .... =)
